the less than colourful

There she goes...

2007-07-09T09:26:00.000+08:00

It's a Monday morning, a really significant Monday morning, and I'm feeling entirely queasy. I don't think anything's wrong with me, as in physically. It's just that life isn't going to be quite the same from now. It's like life took me on a ride, one moment so exhilarating then another down right depressing. And I know so damn sure this ride isn't ending here. I just hope for more exhilaration in the journey. I really wonder how though, how things are going to evolve. I take comfort in that recent thoughts have been most optimistic and interesting, and things might actually fit some day. I mean looking back, at how it all started and all that followed, unless they were foolish self-fulfilling prophecies, there is some hope. Sometimes, I wish someone would just tell me.

Ahh well.

Whatever will be though.... Whatever will be.

I think this should mark the end of the less than colourful journey... and no, it won't be the really colourful journey that i'm about to embark on. Perhaps, no, in fact, it is the beginning of my retreat to the recluse's hideout...

Pathetic

2007-07-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

Last week was hectic - emotionally and physically draining. So rotting at home today it was. Super duper rotting.

But I think I over-rot. Now I'm just lethargic and lazy. And in no time, it'll be back to work.

WAD DA HEOW.

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Anyway, just another thought, I think pride is/was the culprit. Hence our pathetic state.

Hai... (Updated)

2007-07-05T11:08:00.000+08:00

I had a rough night.. Err no. I've been having several rough nights.

Ahh well... Feels as though life or someone or something is making a fool outta me.

Anyway, just took a trip to the loo and something struck me... You know.. being able to recognize our flaws is great, it's like a step forward. But not doing anything about them is like a marathon in reverse...

Hor?

Update: To worsen matters, I just got chilli splashed on my back over lunch. Thanks ah, uncle.

Don't know what to write

2007-07-03T11:16:00.000+08:00

I just opened blogger wanting to post an entry.

But I really don't know what to write... Even tho I really really wana write. Pfft.

A day of Shooting...

2007-06-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

So you see, it wasn't a usual lazy-bumming-rotting Saturday. Instead, it was a day outside in the blistering sun aimlessly shooting photographs of the nostalgic charms of Little India.

Though super short, like only a few hours, it was pretty enjoyable.

And after about an hour of post-production...

Ok, this is just too tedious. How about you click here to view the entire set...

Alright, time for dinner with the family ex rong..

Seeya later alligators!

A bad day

2007-06-26T19:17:00.001+08:00

You know it's a bad day when...

1) You struggle to get out of bed in the morning.
2) You wake up feeling queasy in the stomach from indigestion.
3) You go for lunch alone and have your seat snatched.
4) You walk around alone with a queasy stomach and a coke in hand.
5) Your dinner plans get cancelled, twice.
6) You get home and you choke on incense and wonder if you just walked into a temple.
7) You sit in front of the computer blogging away with your eyes burning from incense.

Let's just see how much worse it's going to get. Considering it's not even 7.30, I think it'll be rather interesting.

Wrappin' up and moving forward

2007-06-26T00:35:00.000+08:00

Some have commented that I'm now a star, while some congratulated me and wished well. An ex-lecturer also asked how the attention's affecting me and all that. I thought it was a joke. Cos' I thought, "hmm, what attention?" Then I figured, okay there was slightly more, just a tiny wee bit tho. Believe it'll all die down in like 2232 seconds.

I hope they weren't just mocking me, really.

Anyhoo, all I can say is that nothing has changed. Except maybe my parents now have more bragging rights. That's about it. Hur hur.

I remain equally apathetic about political issues and most current affairs. (Never had the reading habit, tho I try. But it's reallllly challenging and tiring.)

I remain clueless about starting kick-ass businesses and running them, even though I'd really love to do so. (Lack the guts and the will...)

I remain amateurish and inexperienced at the workplace where I'm entirely uncertain if whatever I'm doing is effective and/or efficient. (Lack passion and drive.)

I guess if anything, it just reinforces my belief in doing the best I can, staying humble and continuously learning.

And in stylo-milo fashion, my mantra/core values shall be:

"Be passionate. Be creative. Create value."

If it drives you, if you feel the same way, let it be yours too. It's absolutely free!

Lousyyy

2007-06-25T17:58:00.001+08:00

I've been feeling super duper lousy all day.

It has to be the Ben&Jerry's ice cream I had at the Night Safari. :(

Rawr. I hate indigestion.

Or could it be that Mr Worms is back to haunt me?

Rants on a lazy sunday

2007-06-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered whether Sheng Shiong's growing presence would threaten NTUC Fairprice's business?

Well, I have. But I think if I were NTUC's management, I'd hardly worry after grocery shopping earlier at SS. No doubt Sheng Shiong has its fair share of die-hards, I still think it is a rather confined market.

You walk in with a smile, because grocery shopping is just so fun, then it almost immediately turns into a frown.

WHY?

1) The place stinks.

2) The wet market section that sells the seafood and stuff is almost worse than the real deal wet markets. I think they are much more organised out there.

3) The place is so bloody cramp.

4) Everything is everywhere. The aesthetics kill the shopping mood.

5) There are rude shoppers that worsen the already terrible experience.

I think I definitely could nitpick on alot more other things, but you get my point.

I must say the motivations of shopping at Sheng Shiong largely revolve around its 'bargain prices'. Well I was eyeing a [yellow tail] that retails $22.05 at NTUC. At Sheng Shiong, it's $20.80. I figured NTUC would better deserve the $1.20 premium. But that's just me.

Nonetheless, I guess the savings can be rather significant if you're doing hardcore grocery stockups for the huge families. But then again, not everything goes cheap.

AHH WELL. Just me, a disgruntled kid, ranting away all day.. Pffft.

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Grad Night at ParkRoyal was pretty ok. The food sucked. We got horrid seats, and hence a crappy view of the stage. But what made it 'pretty ok' was the meeting of ol' friends, abusing the photo-taking system, and I guess just being entertained by the rather hilarious and cool emcee.
It was followed by some drinks with a very odd combination of friends that were somehow interlinked in one way or another. So yea, quite cool la.

Should I post some photos up here? I should right? It serves like some bookmarks or references or backups if my computer ever dies on me again. And I tell you it happens often. But yea, maybe another time. It's a lazy Sunday. The weather is not helping. rawrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace,
zee jc failure

Ups and Downs

2007-06-20T13:40:00.000+08:00

You know, it's like I'm riding this super annoying rollercoaster.

One day, I'm all fired up and feel like nothing's impossible with passion and creativity.

Then another, I'm like... are you sure you can do that?

Then another, I'm worrying for 2 years later and the embarassment that might follow if I get kicked out.

Well, you get the idea. It might seem like I'm riding high up now, but it's really nothing. It's like an empty bubble. So yea, BAH!!!

BM!!!!!!!!!!!!

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On a side note, I'm super happppppy cos I got a bottle of Wahaha Nutri-Express and a bottle of super-full-of-pulp-and-yummy orange Minute Maid from China! Woohooo!!!!! THANKS :D:D:D:D They were the favouritest drinks in Guilin apart from Coke that is.

But the only problem now is that bu she de drink.

What if I drink and there's NO MORE! Plus it's specially hand-imported leh. Pfft.

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Why is my life so full of dilemmas! I know, I know, it's ME!!

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update: There are people who achalee read NEWPAPER! And now I'm a JC FAILURE!

A trying weekend (updated)

2007-06-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

The past few days, or perhaps even weeks, have been most physically and mentally draining.

Nonetheless, I've officially graduated from both Ngeeann and the "Mr Soh cum Mr Poh Driving School"! That means no more super sian monday evenings spent driving and rushing home to watch teevee. That means no more constantly going to the ATM to draw 50-dollar bills. That means no more "turn wite"s and "bu yao kuai a"s. That means an added responsibility to my already burdensome life.

But it is a good problem, right?

So...

WEEEHOOOHAAA!!! YEEEHAW!

Now all we need is a cabriolet and a yacht, don't we? :D

P.S. Can you guys send me grad photos please!! Will appreciate them in my gmail many many! :D:D:D

Update:

V & R (Source: X/V)

LtoR: Fanny, Yufen, Paul, Mark Tan, Ben, rui, Vicole (Source: Ben)

LtoR: Fanny, Yufen, Paul, Mark Tan, Ben, rui, Vicole (Source: V)

R who thankfully did not trip & fall.

Mom, Dad and rui. They came!

LtoR: Lecturer, Dorene Yeo, Sue Tan, rui, Mom and Dad

Fen, fanny and rui (Source: fanny)

Weipei and rui (Source: Weipei)

Paul the dude and rui (Source: V)

More to come if you keep 'em coming! Thanks buddies!

A grouchy day but my boss rocks!

2007-06-05T13:35:00.000+08:00

You know it's such a drag to go to work early in the morning everyday and being grouchy is almost inevitable.

Even more so when you see a dustbin in front of your desk when you've never had one.

Then I looked at my colleague next to me and she pointed to the sticky next to a few balls of crushed waste paper that wrote, "HELLO?!"

Only seconds later, I burst out laughing.

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Haha fine. I know I'm messy but my boss is ~~Ros~~ really funny!

I guess these things really help make worklife a little easier.

i is fat rui.

2007-06-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

This is the true blue fat rui. 12 bak zhangs (dumplings), no less. Chicken rice with extra chicken rice. Lots of coke without aspartame. Bagfuls of chips and twisties at a go. Non-stop candy popping. And a lot more.

Hope I'll never ever revert.

WHYYYY

2007-06-03T02:04:00.000+08:00

Why's the world going overseas?!!!

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Anyway, it's been a lazy week. Rather uneventful. Or so I feel that way. I'm dreading graduation, and driving test. Sian.

Dreading everything. Just wish I could sleep in everyday and rot rot rot.

We need some meaning! We need fun! We need companionship!

Right or not?

Why down under???

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I haven't even began serving the nation but I'm already dreading further studies. Hai. Pressure, pressure.

One day

2007-05-30T10:24:00.000+08:00

Will there be a day where I'm hardly tired or sian?

Why do I get get so lethargic so easily? Huh? Huh? Huh?!!!

It's a horiday tomorrow! Yay! Only that I've got to wake up early. So what the heow. Sian again. See?

The $10 Bill

2007-05-28T12:48:00.001+08:00

What did/does it mean?

Bah.

To my horror

2007-05-28T09:17:00.000+08:00

The last I remember prior to waking up was having trails of lizard eggs on my pillow, ants crawling all over the sheets and the washbasin with tiny shrimps and mosquitoe larvae swimming around after I rinsed the toothpaste out of my mouth.

I think it's this psychological effect after catching a lizard, killing dozens of ants on my table, and getting bitten by the blasted mosquitoes too many times, all in the recent weeks, that got me dreaming.

But what about the prawns?

A mute to be

2007-05-25T09:13:00.000+08:00

People have asked why I have been so quiet of late. Quiet like I hardly talk as much as I used to. But I hardly recall that I used to be chatty. Was I?

Anyhow, let's make a few guesses as to why I'm a mute to be.

1) I'm just too tired. Been having trouble sleeping well and getting enough sleep. I don't know when is ever enough though.

2) I spoke too much as a kid, and as humans, we might have this fixed capacity for the number of words we can actually say in our lifetime. I reckon I must be maxing out soon.

3) I'm secretly harbouring feelings of hate towards everybody. Perhaps only to those who I have significantly chatted less with. I don't know.

4) Just trying to be more cool.

5) Am depressed.

6) Getting dumber. Don't know what to say. No thoughts. No opinions.

I also no know already. Hahaha.

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It is a rather scary thought to be sitting here and finding out how people want to get into the Chinese bourses. Even more so when you know people have millions vested in them. Call me a wimp but yea... just scary.

Our Makan Places: Lost & Found

2007-05-22T20:53:00.000+08:00

I think Gurmit and Michelle make excellent co-hosts. Super enjoyable to watch... they're just not the typical oh-so-fake presenters. I like them deep deep.

Veh cute don't you think?

Ok... just one more for everybody! CUTE OR NOT?

Err.. sorry for the bad quality of the pictures. Used the handphone to take shots off the teevee.

Even sorrier for being so disgusting :(

Catch them next week, Tuesday, 8.30pm, on 5! Last episode!

Spinning head and me

2007-05-22T17:05:00.000+08:00

Feeling so miserably dizzy now. Like I'm going to puke or something... Zzz.

Must be the crappy sleep I've been getting. Doesn't help that there's NAPFA tomorrow. Hardly a doubt that it won't be my first and time taking it at Toa Payoh.

Ahh, like Uncle Thomas would say,

What happen?

Fati-gue

2007-05-20T13:20:00.000+08:00

Morning everyone! Oops, it's 1.21pm, and I just got up.

The previous few posts are almost a reflection of how I've been feeling this past week.

It's lethargy to the max. It doesn't quite help that my internet connection is starting to drop after SECONDS now.

So can anyone kindly offer their extra cable modems to me, please?

P.S. I had to reset my modem before logging on to blogger. And now, I'm about to reset the modem AGAIN before clicking 'PUBLISH POST'. Do you see how short this post is?!

MD!!!!

2007-05-17T13:50:00.000+08:00

How does a life without any worries at all feel like?

DAMN SIAN AHH..!!

Anyway, how to pass NAPFA next week? All the coke, burgers, fries, candy... AND LOTSA ROTTING AND SLEEP!!

Pfft. -shakes head

AHHHHHH!!

2007-05-16T13:28:00.000+08:00

Victim of the rat race!!!!!!!

I want out! A viable out, though.

Chacos and me (In Memory Of)

2007-05-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

Remembering...

"rui's Chacos"

Feb 2004 - Apr 2007

ok la, don't be so drama. haha.. it was getting old and thoroughly abused..

so yea, may everyone have a nice weekend! :D

Project Happy update

2007-05-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

While expectations ran high, physical delivery fell short hence resulting in closing points of 2 out of 10 stars.

What a day..